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I Just checked out my blog front and google has the nerve to put a gross meat ad on the side. Hello Vegetarian, Vegetarian, Vegetarian,  Ughh!!!!  Apparently they use "keywords" so maybe if I say Vegetarian enough  they'll get the hint. 

I can't wait for my mom's bday extravaganza.  The decorations just came today but i have a bunch more to make. apparently i need to make another triple layer chocolate cake cause there is not gonna be any left for this week end. 

soooooo excited. I hope she loves everything!!!!!

Well I think I woke up. Finally.  I think I was in shock from quitting my job.  The shock is starting to wear off.  I have actually cleaned some and cooked dinner like 5 nights in a row.. I've helped the kids with homework and taken friends home and had lunch with my mom and I just got home awhile ago from a movie with my bff. 

Apparently I need to lose weight. Yeah ya think. As sarcastic as I am, hearing this like killed me. I left the dr.'s office and just bawled. 

But it is inevitable.  I have to lose it.  Like I have to lose 120 pounds. Pounds, not ounces, pounds.  How in the hell am i gonna do this. Seriously I am totally freaking out. I should have named this blog The Freak Out Blog because that is all that I have done.  But idonails a.k.a. me is going to lose weight.

Whether is be Weight Watcher, or Jenny Craig, or Nutri System or Atkins or Skinny Bitch I will lose weight.

Yeah, Yeah I think we all know it will be the bitchy way.  And lots of walking.

Are they really that old? Am I really this old?

I can't believe their 14.  It blows my mind.  Not only do I remember them being born like it was yesterday but I remember being 14 like it was yesterday.  Am I really this old?  Don't answer that. They are so  beautiful and talented.  I am so proud of the people they have become and I look forward to seeing they people they will be.

Stopping of the Freaking OUT

I have decided to stop freaking.  Slow down. Well I don't think I could actually get any slower but my mind sure could use a vacation.  Today I have taken a nap and listed some of my books on ebay.  I'm going to slowly tackle this clutter one ebay listing at a time.

I think it will be good to see how much clutter i have then maybe i won't accumulate it again.
I am soo tired.

Haircutting and Veganism

Well, I cut my own hair today and it looks pretty darn good.  It was funny, I thought I was recording myself the whole time, so I'm talking to the camera and cutting my hair and at the end it wasn't recording at all. LOL
It was so funny, I think it actually helped talking myself through it.  I have to say it felt good to have my scissors in my hands..  then........

I read a book about the cruelty that goes on, on farms and slaughterhouses and it is disgusting not to mention what they let pass.  No wonder I feel like crap all the time.. I don't think I will ever eat meat again.  I'm not even sure if I'll eat eggs, butter or drink milk again. Do you know we are the only species that drink another species milk and we are the only species that drink milk as adult.  Cow's milk is used to fatten a calf, do we honestly think just because we don't want it to that it won't fatten us up to,

A Good Offense, Is a Great Defense

Well........I downloaded organizing and house cleaning books.... today..... yeah that's pretty much it.  
Big Plans...... I have Big Plans.  I think i just need to start with a little plan first and then move on to the bigger ones.  Honestly, I forgot what it was like to be a housewife. Like i love the "idea" of it but I'm not certain how much I'm loveing the "reality" of it.. I'm hoping doing a little research and making a visual plan will help.. It sure helps my procrastinating.... and let me tell you I think i have that mastered...... it may be time to move on...... past the procrastinating..

Kitchen Cabinets vs. The Beauty Shop

Omg!  I'm so bored.  Did I really conciously choose to stay home and organize my kitchen cabinets as opposed to doing nail art or a fabulous color?  I miss my clients.. I miss my girls..Well I did one cabinet today. And then I made some fabo chili with steak in it instead of hamburger. 

PMS can do horrible things to a wonderful creature, well at least thats what she turns into once a month, a creature.  God love her, she wants to tell me about her day but when I ask her how her day was she walks off and wants everyone to quit asking questions.  CRAZY!!!  Sooooooo.....then there is my son who tells me that the dishes that won't fit into the dishwasher won't fit into the sink.. That is amazing.  How ever will they get washed. I just do not know (insert sarcasm)

How do you convince certain people that you are right and you know better?  I mean I know how, I just don't know how to nicely.  I can't sleep.  What's up with that.  Not night or day. I need a plan, but I can't concentrate long enough to come up with a plan.  Well the good thing about tomorrow is that it is not today.  Which to all you who may not know that's a new day, a fresh start, a clean slate.  I love tomorrows!  Here's to tomorrow!

Today Is The First Day

Well I quit my job as a Cosmetologist, and today is my first day of my new unemployed life.  I thought of doing something cheesy and cook my way through that red and white checkered cookbook but then I thought that's so overdone and every since Camryn Manheim has lost weight I'm just not sure who would play me in the movie version. Instead I decided to blog about my everday, fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants, going ons.  I change my mind all the time. What can I say it's a woman's perogative. 

So the big plans for today are to clean out my kitchen cabinets. My son is hoping to get lucky and come home to clean kitchen counters as well but then what would that teach him about how to do it right.  He thinks if he continues to do it crappy then I will give up on him and do it myself.  But now that I have dedicated my life to raising 2 responsible functioning, laundry doing, dish cleaning, counter wipeing teens, I plan on putting all my energy into making them good room mates for college and good spouses in life.

I plan on going back to work in 5 years. The girls at work think I'll last a month, my husband thinks I'll last till spring, but my mom and my kids know I'm here for show. Peace.